I am a narcoleptic.
I can nap anytime, anywhere. I’m always tired and get migraines when I ignore my body’s call for sleep (thus, migraines are pretty frequent). I take medication to help me stay awake, but I still fall asleep at the drop of a hat. I spend more time in REM than the average bear and have intense, vivid dreams. I’ve fallen asleep at the wheel and crashed into a street lamp, and slept through my own graduation.
Anyway, point is, I’m a sleepy person, and I fall asleep very, very quickly.
But every now and then I go through bouts of insomnia. Accustomed as I am to falling asleep in 3 minutes flat, this whole counting sheep thing is severely overrated. I hate laying in bed doing nothing, yet my brain is too jittery to do anything productive. Ten minutes of lying awake is an eternity to me…thirty minutes, an hour is beyond eternity. I grow more and more impatient which in turn prevents me from relaxing enough to sleep.
During these bouts I find myself reaching for my sleeping pills just to get through the night. I’m pushing an hour now, and it’s killing me because I know how tired I’ll be tomorrow. I took one about 20 minutes ago and I’m waiting for it to work its magic…
What triggers these insomnia attacks? I don’t know. Stress, probably. I’m an easily stressed person and get anxiety dreams like its my job.
I just want to sleep.